After reading JadedJanissary's last entry, Being Naked, I realized that I rarely experience this "emotional nudity". Is this because I don't trust the person enough? Is it that I don't want the person to disappoint me with their response? Do I not want to get that close with the person?

This also came up when I was talking to my friend Daniela last week. She made the observation that I never tell her anything, and she reveals a lot to me. I know that she will be more understanding than a lot of people, but I still hesitate to tell her if something is bothering me.

I think what it is is that I don't want her to see me as I really am. The more human I appear, the more her opinion of me will change. Is this what I am afraid of?

This must seem really confusing to anyone who hasn't experienced  it, and I do envy you if so, but it is true for someone as introverted as I am.

Does this mean that I am "immature" in my thinking? Probably so. I do want to change, but it is so deeply ingrained in my personality! I want to be able to give my true thoughts to those near at me, but I'm so used to hiding. I've always relied on it, and it has always kept me safe.